My mom just got all sad with me because she wishes i could be a full time student and not have to worry about money too, and having a part-time job. It just makes me happy that she acknowledges how hard it is to do both things.
I have really bad anxiety about tomorrow (later today). I have to do a scene for my acting class where i set up my room on stage and have to lose a meaningful obect. Some of the good things that people have lost (as in they got a good grade) were an engagement ring, a gun, a pregnancy test, and two guys both did heroin scenes.
A few days after the assignment was given to us i had planned to do the heroin scene, and had rehearsed it and felt really confident about it. And then when i went back to class two guys did it, and they nailed it. So i had to change my idea.
I changed it to a pair of scissors. I walk on stage flipping through mail, find a college admissions decision letter, and then be devistated when i see i wasnt accepted. Then i try to look for the scissors and when i find them, i try to kill myself.
I rehearsed this scene a few timed and i still dont feel confident with it. So now im up thinking about everything that could go wrong while I’m on stage like throwing the pair of scissors at the eye of someone in the audience.